Meet with Mydilema - from New Zealand

I am seriously looking for my final soul mate in life. I Find it difficult to talk with beautiful woman face to face and feel intimidated in their presence. It may take me a while to admit defeat to my emotions, but it is normally over in the first few minutes of talking. It is the responses to questions, how they say their answers, how their lips and body react while speaking and what is being said. My dilemma is my age and although I dont feel old, practically I know it, and this causes me some discomfort chatting to younger ladies. I am also torn between younger or older because younger ladies would like to raise a family where older ladies already have one or dont want one. Family to me is the icing on the cake. Afterall, why are we here if not for family. My other concern is my physical prowess maybe lacking and I am afraid of losing their interest before a romance can bloom. I am tentative, patient when needed and I like to surprise my ladies with little gifts of affection. They may not be large or expensive but the gesture to me means a lot. I am not a romantic person and my show of affection in small ways, but I know in my heart that love, understanding and respect is omnipresent. If you are worried about the age gap like me, then there is work to do, if not, then I would ask that you remind me everyday why we are together. If you are worried about my physical appearance like me, again I ask for your understanding and remind me everyday why we are together. If you are worried about satisfying my woman in bed like me, then please remind me everyday, why are we together. Love is more than physical, to me it is understanding without the need to know why, it is knowing without the need to explain, it is feeling without the need be shown. I am a volunteer at a charitable company at the moment as I dont believe anymore that money is more important than life itself. Fun to me is helping other people and satisfaction is knowing it is completed and worthwhile. I dont have much to offer except my life, companionship and heart. I am currently studying for a qualification, writing documentation for the company, researching horticulture and assisting with their financial accounting so my time is limited. I am also aware of my limitations and wish to start off slowly depending on how discussion develop. I like most sports but there are a number that I know very little about. I am a fan of natural food gathering which includes fishing and hunting. Please dont ask one-line questions as this is a yes or no answer which I may not respond to and it tells me very little. Please don't think I am ignoring on purpose, but I prefer to methodically approach every letter with my heart and not my head. This may take a while, or I have other letters to address. I hope you have a great day. xoxox